So far there really have been only two times that I've been really upset about not getting pregnant. First when I found out the doctors were just going to do the same tests on me so I thought we weren't getting anywhere, and second when the specialist told me he thought I had Ovarian Inefficiency. During the first time, I remember just sobbing while I was taking a shower. I don't remember really thinking anything except saddness, no words. But then the only thing that popped in my mind was Casting Crowns' "Praise You in the Storm". The words are so powerful and so appropriate it was amazing. Again, God is so good at putting exactly what you need in your face at the perfect moment. I just stood in the shower, crying and singing that song to myself. I wasn't just singing the song, but I really made the whole song my prayer and spoke every word very diliberately.
Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus
I think it's really easy for me to praise God and thank Him for all the marvalous things he does for me when I'm going through good times; it's harder to praise Him when I'm going through tough times. At that moment, I know God was teaching me to always be thankful and praise Him even in the tough times, cause He's so big and always the same God no matter what I'm going through.
