I don't know if I can really call it an adoption journey if we haven't truly started yet. I feel like I'm on an old country road with gigantic trees on either side. I can't see anything because of the trees and I really can't even see the road because it curves off out of sight. I'm just standing at the beginning waiting to take the plunge down it even though I don't know where it's going; I know it's going to be a journey, but I have absolutely no idea where it's going to lead me.
With that said...the adoption journey is glaring me in the face waiting for me to take my first step. Do I run or walk? Do I stop and ask a ton of questions? Who do I ask for directions? Oh my goodness people! I'm learning that people who adopt absolutely, with all their hearts, do want children, because you can't just get pregnant, you have to pick an agency and lawyer, fill out paperwork, pay LOTS of money and so much more.
We're currently in that very first stage - picking an agency; so many things to consider with so many different options. My goal is to have the home study completed (if possible) and on a "waiting list" by the end of this year. We're slowly moving in the right direction, though, to choose the right agency for us.
But...that 'who do I ask for directions' question needs to be addressed. I've been spending a lot of time in prayer and am doing a study on fasting right now. It's not something I've ever done or know anything about. I do know fasting is very biblical, however, and can be an extremely spiritual experience. I wanted to know more about it, and what the Bible says about it before I do it though, so that's what I'm currently working on.
It's refreshing to know the Lord will stroll down an old country road with you if you'll just ask.
