I'm currently reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan (for the second time). If you haven't read it, I strongly recommend it; it's incredibly well written speaking to your core about the honest truth and how simple loving God should be. We all need to be crazy in love with God because of who He is and what He's done for us.
The chapter I just finished reading is about death and the realization of it. We have to realize that our lives on Earth are just a tiny blimp in time. We should be concerned about what matters the most - telling others about the love of God and what they too can have in Him. "Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven" (Matthew 10:32-33).
EVERYTHING we do needs to give glory to God. Not because we have to (because we don't...we have freewill), but because God absolutely deserves it and our love for Him should be so overwhelming that we can't help but to give Him the glory with everything we do (brushing our teeth, driving to work, talking to our spouse...seriously...everything).
So I'm trying to apply this to infertility. As I've stated before, I truly believe God is going to make me a mom someday; I'm not sure how or when but I am convinced He will. As my husband and I review the possibilities of adoption or foster care, there are a lot of things to think about. I keep going back and forth in thinking about foster care specifically. If you know me, you know I'm a pushover and incredibly emotional and compassionate (probably too much at times). My husband and many others tell me I probably couldn't handle fostering; which I believe could very well be true. However, when I think about giving all things to God for His glory, I think maybe I could. Yes, it may be very difficult seeing those children come into our lives, falling in love, and then having to give them back to a possibly unsafe situation, but what am I doing with the children while they're with me? Hopefully I am showing God's love to them in a way they haven't seen before. There are so many children waiting to be adopted or need to be fostered who haven't experienced that before. Many have I'm sure, but far too often they don't. I figure if I can show them God's love while they're with us and give them that knowledge and hope, I am giving glory to God. And maybe I could even plant the seed or see the harvest of salvation in some of their lives!
I don't know if my husband and I are going to foster or adopt at this point, but I am realizing there are many blessings in these options as well. I just have to remember that in everything I do, I need to give glory to God. Is my purpose in life to have a baby? No. Is my purpose even to be a mom ? No. My purpose is to give all the glory to God in everything I do. My purpose is to love as God loves and serve Him in hopes that others will come to know Christ.
