What is enough? What does it mean when I say "Jesus is Enough"? My Sunday School teacher talked about this several months ago and it really stuck with me for some reason. What does it mean to let Jesus be enough in your life? As I'm writing the question, it's hard for me to think of an answer. I think it probably means that it doesn't matter what or who you encounter or what you go through, because you have Jesus and He's enough. Lost? Jesus is all you need as He will help you find your way. Jesus is Enough. Hungry? Jesus is all you need as He will provide. Jesus is Enough. Confused? Sad? Jesus is all you need as He will bring you peace and comfort. Jesus is Enough. It seems so simple, but I don't think we truly get it until we're in His shoes. At least I don't.
For some reason (well not for some reason...God's teaching me), I've had a few things happen to me recently where I have felt like I wasn't enough for some people. My true problem: I get way too excited over a maybe and then when something or someone doesn't follow through, I get extremely disappointed and upset. You might say this is a fault of mine. No one is to blame when I get disappointed except myself; I expect way too much out of people. A couple separate instances I'm thinking of specifically are when people didn't want to spend time with me. And yes, I realize it wasn't that they really didn't want to spend time with me (or at least that's what I'm telling myself), it's just that other things came up that were more important or maybe couldn't be avoided. But I found myself getting excited to spend time with them and then getting disappointed because plans fell through.
Both times, the words "I'm not enough" came to my mind. And I questioned myself-why am I not enough? I then fell into a spiral of "well if I had kids, they would want to visit or hang out". And then of course, the "and I can't even have kids" pity party begins. So I'm sitting alone in the living room having this pity party for myself. "Woe is me...I can't have kids...I'm not enough for some people...wa...wa...wa". (I promise I'm not as much of a spoiled brat as I sound like in this post.) Then I think, is it selfish to be sad that I'm not enough for some people? Is it arrogant? Ignorant? Or maybe just disheartening? I don't know, but I start trying to imagine what Jesus would do in this situation; how would he feel? How would He feel if people didn't think He was enough? Then the tears just flow as I finally get what I'm being taught-what the some reason has been. Jesus does feel like this. Jesus knows exactly, better than anyone, what it feels like for people to think He's not enough. Even I, the same one wailing over the exact thing that makes me sad, has told Jesus time and time again that He is not enough. But He is enough, more than enough, and now I think I actually get it (or think I do at least).
